Friday June 15, 2018
My heart has been really heavy lately. Work has been really heavy lately. Self care has been extremely important lately- journaling, yoga, meditation, and even something so simple as getting outside.
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It feels as though a tiny part of my heart is chopped off more and more as time ticks on. Whether it’s when I see a Mom break down seeing her sick child for the first time, or seeing a Dad hear bad news & see his face flood with tears. Or hugging my patient’s siblings as they cry on my shoulder. And the greatest chop at my heart – having one of my patient’s die. 😭
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Chop here. 💔
Chop there. 💔
Chop next week. 💔
Chop next month. 💔
Chop, chop, chop. 💔💔💔
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Trying to comfort a distraught family member is one of the hardest things I’ve had to do in this life & it seems to only be getting harder. I started crying on my break, sitting outside of work last night. Now I’m crying as I am writing this waiting for my smoothie (so people must think I’m crazy).
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I feel as if I don’t ask for much. But if you could send up some love for me, my patient, and their family today, whether it is through prayers, positive vibes, or whatever is your jam- that would be genuinely appreciated. Hug your loved ones a little tighter, and tell your people in your life how much they mean to you.💛 .
Thank you for my happiness, my health, John, my family, my friends, and my continued growth in this journey called life.
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x love & light x